Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Rough Week

Well it seems we go through 3 pretty good, easy, lovely weeks then comes the bad one. This is that bad one. I am not sure what happens, if he gets too tired and needs a week to catch up on sleep, if we get too busy and he gets run down, or what really it is. but I am tired of this ebb and flow and ready for this stage to end. Michael argues about everything this week and whines so much too. I wish I had more time to work with him and find a way through this, but it takes up so much time and I am not finding a way to curb the whines. I have taken away candy, toys, tv, done early bed, etc.. Just seems like it is bad for a bit and then gets better (thankfully). But how do I teach him to obey, listen, respect, etc? Parenting is so hard...

On a board I post on, there was a question posed today. A poll of how you enjoy motherhood. Here are the choices...

Yes! I wouldn't trade it for the world!

Yes, but I have good times and bad.

Not really, most days are not fun at all.

No! Can I run away and never come back?

other, please explain.


It was hard to see how many people typed 1 and 2 and right now I feel as if I am a number 3. I am sure this is a stage and hope things get better. Yes at one point it was a 1+, a 1 all the way.. Then it went to 2 and now it seems that we will never get out of this. Life has been hard with the divorce, the move, my jobs, $ stress and then adding a child that I am not sure how to discipline and raise in a Godly obedient fashion.. I feel at a loss at times. So anyway.. I chose a #2 and just really hope this phase passes and I can begin to enjoy it again. I need to find a way to stay in my bible reading daily, keep up on my chores and have that stress out of my hair so I can play with Michael more. I have been just living day to day and he has been tagging along, I will need to work into this and learn how to let things go, spend more quality time with him, learn to laugh and ply and enjoy this motherhood thing again.

ok whine over.. He is in a bath now and heading to bed real soon. I was going to watch a movie, but I think it is time for some bible reading and soft music to de-stress. One thing I am happy about is that I got so much of my chores done today and on the way to a "picked up" house again. I usually do my chores on Saturday, but I spent much of my weekend on the couch, bored, depressed, unmotivated, in and out of sleep and in a blah state.. ick!

I am excited about tomorrow, I am taking Michael and 3 of his fiends to Chuck E Cheese. Yes I am really good at taking him places and keeping him busy so I don't have to entertain him at home too.. lol. But again.. just a phase and something I am slowly working into. I got my chores done right when I got home today and then spent a good portion of time playing with him before dinner. We tried to watch Iron Man together tonight, but the whining just got too much and I really got bored of the movie. So bath time for him and down time for me.


ok.. got to run

Friday, March 20, 2009

Terrible

I am terrible at keeping this thing updated, but I guess the little I do type is better then none at all. Things with work are all still the same. I am so excited for conferences this next week (half days with the kiddos only) then spring beak after that. I have been really wanting to get away for even the weekend after spring break just to hang out with Michael, do something fun, get away, etc. But every where I can think of that is away from here is too much for us :(. Even a trip to Seattle would cost $350-500+ and we just don't have that :(.

Things are going fine at school and the new daycare. He seems to like this place a bunch more then the last and I think I can trust the people there a ton more. I am happy that it is in a church and they have chapel there again like he did at Grace Harvest (ONE*).

Chester is going fine too. He is learning so much and getting so big. I can't believe all the things he talks about now and I have no clue (and scared to think of HOW.. sometimes he knows all this stuff. But he had a mid year progress check and he is doing great. Knows all his upper letter, lower letters, shapes, patterns, numbers and can count very high. He needs to work on the 'u" sound but that is the only ting out of the whole assessment :) YAY! His conference is Tuesday, I am anxious to see how the numbers pan out for that. He also had hi DIBELS testing a few months back and got grade lever or above average for all the areas on that too :) YIPPEE! He is so smart. We have been going to the library and having him read a bit more to me, from books from there or just a few words here and there that he knows from his own book shelves. That is fun too.

He is still BIG into UNO and games and getting more into toys again too. He still loves his crafts and makes a big mess almost nightly on all his creations.

His birthday part is coming up soon and he has decided to have a Star Wars (close wars) party. I sent the cake ideas off to Grandma and I just finished making his invites on the computer tonight.


Life with the house and all is getting a bit easier. I got my car paid off last month wheew, what a relief that was. We also started the re-fiance process (what a long drawn out chore) and we finally have our appraisal this upcoming Thursday.. yep the 26th my birthday :). Then in about 2-3 weeks it should all be done for good. just about 3% lower and then taking off the extra I have been paying, will save me about $300 a month. My lawyer is also all done now finally too. What a huge huge chunk of money to fight and get nothing, but I am glad I tried and now glad to have it all done. A big expense or small piddly things, it just adds up and up, but the last check went to them this week too. I got a pretty huge and nice tax refund, so that all went to mom and helped a bit there. It was great to be able to claim Michael and I get to claim him again next year too. After that KC and I will alternate years.

Couponing is going ok.. slow some weeks. Just no time to spend digging up deals or out shopping for them. So many slide by me.. but I try and I do get a few here and there and will get a stock pile sooner or later and am proud at the money I do save. I am planning on tossing a BUNCH of junk out this spring, cleaning out the garage, sorting through the house and streamlining our lives. With these changes I will have baskets in the garage systems for different stock pile items and will get them all organized. I really can't wait to do this part.

Well enough babbling for now.. Life is good :) It has been a long time, coming, but I feel (well today anyway), that I can say that... oh yeas karate I almost forgot. I guess I will fill you in on that next time.